My health issues

My health issues for years by


I had three eye surgeries when I was very young.. You can see this picture of me as baby .. the eyes is not corrective. I had " crossed eyes " .. They find that I got one when I was six years old at Albany New York .. I had surgery twice there then third one at Washington D.C. I now have glasses to wear when I was six years old. .. I am thankful that has been corrective on my eyes and see better .. you can see before and after pictures
On october 10, 2000 is worse thing happen to me when i got off the bed. i had so much pain in my stomach...it lot worse as you think of. i couldn't hardly walk on it. I went to see doctor on October 27 for exploratory surgery . I pray to the lord to keep doctor find what is the problem with pain on my stomach. . They find I got " Endrometrosis " on left ovary . Doctor said they couldn't see back of it so they want to set major surgery to take the left ovary out. . they scheduled me for surgery on November 30th. . I notify my store manager for take off the work because i have so much pain and will have surgery soon. . I wasn't feeling well on my birthday ..you can see this picture .. how look I was. I was wreck!
November 17, 2000
On November 29th, we got the word from Tri Care disapproved to have surgery on regular hospital. I was very disappointment of this news. I felt got anger ths is got to be done by now. the pain gave me hard time in these days. .
Fincally got another appointment with doctor at Womack Army Hospital on December 6th .Doctor explain to do with my surgery . we discussed to have hysterectomy and left ovary out . It is sad to have not children anymore. I choose to have both done. I have so much painful for years.
Doctor set the surgery date on December 15th . an week before christmas.
Surgery on December 15th fincally here. I pray the lord help doctors to care of me durning the surgery . it has been three hours surgery. That long time ! I stayed in hospital for two days. I got emotional distress while this painful continues. the nurse told me I need walk couple times. OH....I hate what that happens . .I remember this book author Margent Jenson quote " Pain is so excirating, worse than the labor" I would have say with Apostle Paul quote ": to go is little as I would add it it was need first for me to say God have mercy on hurting world, never knew what is right . Pain could last forever" My frustrated of the staples hurted my stomach for whiole time. I remember my mother told " COUNT ON YOUR BLESSINGS!" I fincally got the staples out on day after christmas. Thank goodneess. it free as bird! .. it has been eight years with no complications of stomach pains.
MY DEPESSION STAGES
The year of 2005.
. We suppose to move to West Virginia on July .We never expect whtat happening to us, It was my father acts so strange on April I have no clue and realize he got problems with us. . I got real fill with anger, complains, fights, miserables, and very depressed. I know it is not healthy for me. My mother and I had a hard time dealing with my father's condition since we went to the court hearings for three months . My father end up in mental hospital at Raliegh for two months. My mother finds that My father has a dementia..Do we believe that? She brought him home on Christmas Eve. I was so afraid what he might do something to us. He haven't. He has been very quiet and lay on the bed all the time until the new year, I was very struggle. "Why me?"The life is not easy task but God does help us if we can ask him to help us, give us a good advice.. It made me realize what it is important this testmony meant to me. It is important for me understand to have a family again. Before Augest 2005, I was member of classmates.com, I have lost self esteem overcome losing lost lot of friends from here.My anger and depression have been built up so quickly. I realize what worth of lots of friend who have been encourage me so much .. it took me awhile to get over with it.
Augest 10th, 2005
I got real deep deep depression. I felt like stuck at the hole with the devil.I went in the kitchen., got the prescription driug doctor gave me . I took two instead one. it made drowness. I was so scared to take it. I was shake like a leaf. I was looking into Death. . I went sleep all morning.I told my mother about it. My mother called my pastor to come and talk with me.. I realize now I will be sinless if I did attempt self murder (suicide) . I wouldn't have life after death. .I told myself " Why me ? " I told God to help me to get rid of devil thing out of my mind. I told the devil "go away". I told my pastor about my feelings about my parents and didnt want be like my father from last year. My pastor didn't want me do it.). I told him I didn't want do that neither. Sucide is not option.. If you do that, it will end up going to hell. You won't realize your life will not back .. that sadly... Thanks to my pastor explained to me about " HELL" . I decide to get some help from psychologist and Christian couselor. I have to adjust my life together, find a job, go someplace else. and enjoy myself in anywhere. ..I told God to help me to get rid of devil thing out of my mind. I told the devil " go away". I remember this verse " James 4:.7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you."I have been on the medication for year . it is for mood swings.I am doing real well . I have been seeing the couselor for threemonths until october. Right now. I am no longer see the couselors or the medication unless I need them for my mood swings. I came back to Myspace .I joined in Myspace on November 7, 2005. My good friend from Top friend list in myspace gave me the idea of the book called " How to win over Depression? " by Tim LayHaye..I got this book, read it , took this test. Oh I am in trouble. I Realize what I did wrong here. I kept reading on and on. It blew me away..I pray God to help to let me seek your word of the scriptures.and understand. He did. I got depression sometimes when I have no job an year since I left my former job at McDoaulds in December 13, 2005. It took several months to finding a right job for me until May. Got the call from friend at church asked for watch their dog while they are away. I took it. I remember now in what the lord show me " Jer 29: 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.we must communicate with God through prayer. We can ask God for wisdom (James 1:5). We can ask God to help us recognize, and submit to, His hand. We can thank Him for how His hand has guided us. We can ask Him to help us learn His lesson, in His time, for whatever time His hand is bringing us through. It worth of being patince for the lord has plan for me in year later, One of our church friend, called me , asked me for dogsitting their dog while they are away . I am just overwelcomed of answered prayer. .It has been two years overcoming depression. I sometime get emotional depression but the lord keep remind those words everyday . I am so blessed to have someone there for me. It is Jesus Christ. On October 4th 2005
I had a misable time when I was very sick with stomach viirus last few days until Thursday.I told my mother to take me to the hospital. Oh, it scare me a death. My stomach felt nausa! . Why me O lord. I am too sick to go! I am too weakness.. I did go to the emerency room. The doctor fincally gave me the IV on with special liguld . I was dehydrated for two days straight. I couldn't eat at all. I was so miseable there. My doctor said it is a stomach virus. I started feeling lot better later the evening and return home. Next day, I starting eat slowly and drink. I begin walk around a bit. God has been working out on me. He has been healing me. I was praying to God while I was in the Emerency Room. I remember this scripture in my head as I did pray. Jeremiah 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for thou for thou art my praise.. So it done! next day.!. I went to my high school reunion following weekend. I had a blessing weekend!
Thank you for reading..
Journal Seven will be " What so Special kids like you? " it is about working special kids (disabilty kids such Autism) maybe next week.
God bless.
Notes
1.. www.biblegateaway.com
3. http://www.christianbook.com. Look for " How to win over depression" by Tim Lahaye
For supportive organization
For information on Crossed eyes.
http://www.uic.edu/com/eye/LearningAboutVision/EyeFacts/CrossedEyes.shtml
Endometriosis
http://www.endocenter.org/
Sucide
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Depression
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/depression/DS00175
http://stresshelp.tripod.com/